Wow. It has been quite a few years now that I have understood that I am saved and will spend eternity with God. That I am part of his family and kingdom NOW. But some days the reality hits me like a ton of bricks and I am flooded with emotion.
When you work at a church, the week of Easter is crazy - busy. 600 people at Easter EGGsplosion, a couple hundred at 3-Fold Communion, and close to 1000 people at 4 worship services! It is easy to get caught up in the details and find little time to slow down and just be still. But today during worship I finally had the time to do that. Between the music, the message and a powerful video, God spoke loud and clear. I am amazed and can't even begin to understand how God uses man-made things like music and speakers to communicate directly to us, but I am thankful He does!
It is definitely not something I am tuned in to every day, but occasionally in life I have moments where I am literally flooded with a sense of how much God loves me. I am having trouble coming up with words to describe what I feel and what I know. Some might claim that it is a hyped-up emotional response to a well-orchestrated corporate worship experience. I won't deny that a little bit of it may be. But more than anything the outpouring of emotion is a response to what I know to be completely true: that the God of the universe is so crazy in love with us (with ME!) that he allowed his Son to be brutally tortured and killed just to allow us (ME!) to be with Him forever. If you don't have an emotional response to that, I'm not sure you get it.
My friends and family know that I am generally not a very emotional person. I can't remember the last movie that drew a tear. But moments of flooded realization of God's amazing love and grace get to a place in my heart that nothing else can.
I want to live in this place every day. It's pretty sweet.
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We are His portion and He is our prize,
Drawn to redemption by the grace in His eyes,
If grace is an ocean, we’re all sinking. -David Crowder song
Drawn to redemption by the grace in His eyes,
If grace is an ocean, we’re all sinking. -David Crowder song
